One of the biggest problems when trying to lose weight is having the will power to avoid eating too often. I have to admit this is one of my biggest problems. People tell you to eat more often and just make sure you are eating the right kinds of food. Whatever. That is easier said than done.
Every time I walk into a kitchen, which is quite often throughout the day, I want to immediately go raid the cupboards for some kind of snack. It seems as though I am obsessed with eating. I just constantly feel the urge to go get something to munch on. I haven’t been able to find something that I won’t overindulge in.
I know this is part of my problem. I used to do this without even thinking about it. I would just grab something on my way through the kitchen. Now, I have to avoid kitchens almost entirely. Otherwise I can hear that food calling out to me. Check the refrigerator. Check the cupboard above the stove where we keep the junk food. I wonder if Bobbi bought anything good that is hidden in the cupboard.
It is really quite a nagging urge. No matter what I cannot make it go away. In fact, thinking about it right now is making me very hungry and I just want to go eat. I wonder if this is how alcoholics feel about wanting to get a drink.
It would be a lot simpler if I could get myself away from places that have kitchens. Unfortunately, the two places I spend the majority of my time, the office and my home, both have kitchens jammed full of food that keep calling out to me. It is maddening.
I have asked Bobbi not to buy any more junk food. If there is no junk food in the house then I can’t eat it. I do have enough willpower to keep from going to the store to satisfy my urges. But, if the food is easily accessible, I am too weak. I will give in almost every time.
The mental part of this has to be the biggest hurdle for me. I know what I need to do. I just can’t get myself to do it 24/7. I get myself psyched up for a day or two and then just slowly fall right back into my bad eating habits. I am half tempted to try using hypnosis to help with the mental aspect of it. I am sick of being this fat.
